Do
you ever get so caught up in a flavor trend that you worry yourself?
Lately my flavor of choice has been coconut. I blame it on coconut
flavored sparkling water. It really is refreshing. We started out
with that, and now I can't help but notice that most of the cold
beverages I am buying have a coconut flavor. For example, Central
Market brand has a kaffir lime and coconut Italian soda. This mixed
with premium white rum and ice makes an amazing refreshing drink.
It's simple and delicious. In fact, I am almost tempted to go back to
my nearby HEB and pick up more just in case they sell out by next
weekend. I plan on making this my summer drink of choice.
I
am looking forward to the next couple of weekends. Next Saturday, I
am going on a day trip with my sister to pick up her two miniature
donkeys. Jax and Guinness are finally coming home, and I know my
sister couldn't be more excited. To make it even better, they will
also be welcoming their first longhorn calf named Big Tex, the
following day. As if my sister didn't already have her hands full,
she's now adding rancher to her many titles. If I know anyone who
could handle it, she would be the one. I actually feel sorry for
those poor animals. They will feel like life before my sister was
torture. She will spoil them rotten, like she does everyone else.
She's really good at that.
Of
course America's independence day is coming up very soon. We love
holidays and like to make a big deal out of cooking and getting our
loved ones together. We decided on a hot dog bar, with a giant vat of
baked beans, and chips. This sounds about as perfect the apple pies
we will bust out before the fireworks show. We really don't need a
reason to make all this, but we like to have an excuse. I think my
nephew is slightly disappointed that there is no Uncle Sam and his
team of freedom eagles to bring all patriotic boys and girls presents
for being so American. He will have to console himself with some fun
outdoor activities. This is South Texas and I have no doubts that it
will be a hot mammer jammer. Water will be involved.
Even
with all this wonderful family time and events coming up, things
aren't all sunshine and roses. Stress has infiltrated my life in
abundance. As strong as I thought I was, I was sadly shown that even
I need help dealing with stuff. These past few months tested my
limits and introduced me to a highly impatient and rather irritable
side of myself. I didn't know how to stop it. Even with most of the
reason removed from my sight, the residual issues have created enough
of a mess for me to lose my cool. It is like someone came up to the
little pond that is my life, cannon-balled, splashing half the water
out, and left their trash around my shores. I'm in recovery mode and
my first instinct is anger and the second is more anger.
I'm
trying to reboot myself. Carrying this negativity around is heavy and
I know it's not good for me. I can't avoid dealing with my
disgruntled thoughts. It is easy to internalize your emotions for the
sake of someone else, but then it backfires. I feel like I was on the
verge of an epic explosion. I am glad that I didn't, because the
damage would have been vast. I would have regretted things I had
said, and damaged relationships beyond repair. This is not my goal.
No lesson would have been learned, nor any good would have come of
it. So I do what I always do when I have things to say, but no one
needs to hear. I write, and promptly erase it. Every time a word
document asks me if I want to save, I hover over the button just a
second before saying no. Life isn't always about kicking sand in your
enemy's eye. It's better to look them in the eye and know you can,
but you won't.
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